Today's the day, I'm officially checked in to the hospital and am in my tiny room. I know I'm supposed to stay positive but today I just feel sad. Facing the very small room and the realization that I can't leave this space for at least thirty days is upsetting me. I hate feeling so restricted and I hate not having any freedom. I hate knowing that my life for the next three months is going to be ruled by Doctors and nurses and not by what I want. Plus, being in this small room is kind of like being in a jail cell.
I don't have much else to say, my chemo doesn't start until midnight, so why I had to be here so early is beyond me but I'm learning that hospitals have a way of wasting a lot of time. I'm sorry if my sour mood is upsetting to you but I'm not sorry for expressing myself. It's a crappy day and I'm not going to sugar coat it for anyone.
Until tomorrow, love from room 9215.
Jenn, you have been so positive this whole time when so many other people would have not been able to. You are entitled to have a bad, negative, feel sorry for yourself day! You are such an inspiration to so many people and I hope that tomorrow you are feeling better!
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